Lets Start Over...

There is a lot I want write about..My recent experience with a relationship has taken a toll on me emotionally. I never knew that one Human could love another Human so much  that when there suddenly gone it's like the world has stopped and nothing matters anymore. Sure I've spent my days and certainly nights crying over it, but what use is that gonna do. I woke up this morning and sure I cried a little at the thought of us only being best friend anymore, but I realized at some point I have to make my world turn again. I have to move on yes they will always have my heart and if they realize that they want me back I will gladly take them ,but there comes a point when you just gotta try and move on. Sure there are little things here and there that might remind me of them, but it's how I handle those things that remind me of them. So I'm deciding today to move on well to not let this hold me back anymore even though they will always have my heart. I've realized that outta all the relationships I've had and lost  that I'm a really caring person and i truly put all into relationships , but there are just some people out there who just "in my Opinion" don't know how to love someone proper;y. All my life I have watched my parents be in love. I have watched how my dad treats my mom and they way he looks at her. I have learned that in order to truly love someone you have to be willing to there for them even when things rough and times are tough. It's been amazing to watch them be so in love after all these years. I truly admire my parents and thank them for teaching me so much about what it means to love someone you truly care about. I think that's why this recent relationship has been so hard on me because I finally felt and kinda understood some of what my parents have tough me about relationships and love, but the second it was suddenly gone it was like my heart was torn. It's funny that I can now say I'm OK for right now just being Best Friends with this person because at least they are still in my life, but if they ever walk completely away I know that it was for the best and that's just how it was meant to be. I've been thinking a lot lately about what I want in my life and I have come to the conclusion I don't want much I just want to be happy and I just want people to love me for who I am. So all and all I  have learned what it is to be really truly loved and I know that people come into our lives for a reason and that we should be focusing on rather than all the bad reason that they come into our lives for. I know that If i could i'd ask them to start over to give me another shot, but some how i know that won't change a thing  so i'm just gonna accept what is and leave it at that.

Vacay

So I know this post is a bit late, but over the week I had off for Christmas I got a new camera and that thing is so cute and awesome..so I documented my adventures during that week and the results where!

Overwhelmign Fantastical Fun!